-LiQuiD WoRLd-

It's all coming back to me

2008-08-31T17:35:00.002+10:00

This week.... although nothing special happen...
my heart and soul did went up to the sky and down to earth.
Have you ever ask yourself about regreting something was done or feel sorrow about something?
Well.... i do have... certain things to feel sorrow for.
Yes indeed you can have best of both worlds.
But making the best out of both worlds are possible.
Be contented...Be Wise....

2006
I feel sorrow for my behaviour towards my family.
I chose my ex-boyfriend N upon spending time with my family.
I chose to spend my time with his family than my family.
I thought i was the girl for him.
I gave it all out to him.
Never thought which exchange sorrow,painful experience..
It's all coming back to me now....
The pictures of him in my head..
Knowing that.. he dump me cuz i chose to go overseas study.
But i gave myself a better explaination, I gain experience, I gain the feeling, the open-mind..
All of this...i get it in a foolish, painful way...

2007
Once bitten twice shy
Shame on you if you fool me once,shame on me if you fool me twice.
The Singaporean ex-bf A
Proven me I am dead stupid...damn foolish..
and i dont wanna talk bout it.
I hope girls in singapore wont get cheated by his behaviour.
You'll just get into trouble if he didn't had his medication.
which you don't even know he had mental sickness
His parents helped him to cover.
His parents are also insane..

2008
I don't want to have so much experience in relationships.
But i just couldn't find the one.
All the experience just haunt me.
Even i want to.... memories would just drive me crazy.

Took a flight to another state just to help my ex-boyfriend C finish his assignment.
Took every holiday to fly to his place to mend the relationship.
He did came..
But leaving a sorrow memory which i never thought i would see...

Since then I learnt my lesson in the hard way.
Whenever i fall, a man would catch me, hold me up,
talk to me when i'm bored....
The man whom i never know i trust him most....
--------------My PAPA

I thought i was strong but i was wrong....
I thought i could get over it fast enough.
Yeah~ indeed i have a lot of entertainment in my life...
Memories will still be memories...
Appears in our mind on and off.
Happy memories worthable memories, will just make us smile when came to think of it
Sad memories will just make us shed a tear.
Sorrow memories, shocking memories will just haunt us, being a river between you and success..

Dont know what i'm looking for...
Dont know what i'm waiting for...

I'll find the reason why, just one step at a time

Trip to Sydney, Gold Coast and Brisbane Part 2

2008-08-01T13:29:00.009+10:00

Bondi Beach @ Sydney

Prepared to go Phantom of the Opera @ StarCity~~~

Boring midnite, Pool time.... candy had her 2nd pool game..

WildLife

Rainbow snake...EEEEwwwwww

Pancake on the Rocks

The Opera House

Harbour Bridge

There is nothing much to do at night, we went the opera house to walk around during the mid night.. weather was cold..but we folks still pose some posture as model wannabe...muahaha

Trip to Sydney, Gold Coast and Brisbane

2008-07-31T21:41:00.015+10:00

29 June 2008

On our way to the Avalon Airport by TAXI TAXI TAXI

Let me introduce our trip crew

I Give u............................

Me and Susana Oh

Alex Cheung

Eugene Lim

Candy Yap....

In SYDNEY.

There's 2 level inside the train..that's what cool about it

Karaoke in GREEN BOX is damn worth it...

2 hour per AUS$10
For people who stuck in the middle of the time, actually can juz pop up to Green Box and sing.

Me, Jay, Eugene, Candy and Susana

Our Rented a service Apartment

Situated in the city in Sydney. Damn convenient and it's GREAT.

with the share with the price it is cheap.If we could make our mind earlier, we can get cheaper.

2 Bedroom, 2 bathroom. Gym, spa and pool. Kitchen with utensils, plates ready, Soaps, detergent. ^^

Lazy to go out find food in the 1st day, so Alex and eugene cook for us... babies..^^

Apparently, this was my idea of combination for these.....

Surprisingly, you'll find this category of food does NOT...let me write this again...DOES NOT go together. Carbonara does not go with chicken and bread and NUTELLA and garlic bread (-.-")

In the end, me, eugene and alex, put EVERYTHING..i mean EVERY THING together like a BURGER and eat it....

For the reason of..... when it comes out it is still combination of everything...-shit-

1st one to K.O of the day------ ME sleeping on the couch...

QVB -Queen Victoria Building @ Sydney

The classic design shopping mall which sell all Branded things, luxury goods.

Fish Market @ Sydney

The city of Sydney. View from the bridge

IMAX theatre

Down the escalator and Aquarium here we go...... ;)

Aquarium

what i think is that purchasing the Aquarium entrance fee with Wildlife and Sydney Tower will be worthable because it save $$. plus you can go whenever you want. Unless you're not interested in wildlife insects or animals...

Anyway, what the aquarium i'm interest is the sharks....other than that....hmmm boring...because.. Malaysia has much more reef and underwater creatures to be seen ^^ if u go scuba diving or snokering ^^ at those islands..

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Night View Outside

To be continue..................

Melbourne Life

2008-07-31T21:17:00.003+10:00

现在的心情就是一种很想很想在水中冷静的，聆听着水中的音乐。
最近，我真的真的很开心，很平静。
一样的色彩，一样有几滴的污点，
这次的天空，比之前更明亮。
生活中，的确是出现了几位角色。
路人甲、重要角色、配角、还有更多的人。
由于hotchocolate,ah kong的角色都一路上在演出，更没想到会在次出现的 J，他偶尔会出现呀！
一路上在Melbourne陪着我的好同伴Susana & Candy....绝对有了他们，我不什么觉得空虚。
家里的快乐，温暖都是由我们三位加盐加醋配出来的好料！
我们家的常客，YYY、HUDSON、SUBARU、ALEX, 家的朋友DERRICK、MAX、MORNA、EUGENE···还有等等。他们绝对不能缺少的哦！

我的朋友真的很RANDOM，
Honestly speaking, 我的确有很多“group” 的朋友，
这不是乱哦！This is my public relations....
Anyway.... i would love to paint my life with all sorts of colours...
哎哟！爸妈吵着“怕死没得玩”，我的想法是“青春时间快过哟！”
我太享受了呀～
这·······人生该享受吧～时间没的倒回，朋友的时期、的单纯、的自由也要珍惜嘛！

为何我会这样讲啊？
告诉你，我的亲爱的“想知道”的朋友们，＝P～
看一看，我的生活照吧～

2008-05-19T15:36:00.003+10:00

Yesterday Buddha day in melb at federation square,
went there with YYY
I'm Roman Catholic but i do go for other festival celebration.

You get to write wishes and hope on the leaf at there...

Doubts

2008-05-18T06:30:00.000+10:00

Saturday 17 May 2008
It was great to attend cellgroup.
I learnt about the differences between 谦卑 & 自卑
谦卑，是放别人比自己高。
自卑，放自己比他人低。
怎么说呢？

自卑
是缺点
是把自己看得很低落的那一个，
什么东西都想得很惨的，（做最坏的预算〕，可是又弄得对自己没有信心的，
本来不是，都想到是。
如果有所控制，会让这些人更争气，
心机强，想要胜过他人，
那别人来做目标，
若得到，他的心理会好起来，
若失败，他会更自卑，若严重会导致自杀。
这些人都在寻找他的肯定，他的目标。

谦卑，
是优点，
他把别人放高来看，
他会学习，
会没有心机的，
他看得开。
to be honest... 我不是很懂谦卑。大概听一半吧。

anyway,我是属于自卑的那一种人。
为什么？
我是齐全的，什么都有，
却因为过错让我痛恨自己。
我想，
连我自己喜欢的人，也不懂吧。
他都会偶尔问我的过去，
在我伤口重次打开，
然后，还要撒上盐。

最近，对他我也没讲什么的。
他不包容，也不得逼他接受，
他不够爱我吧。
所以，就算他多完美，他不适合我。
我为何还要为他流泪？
为何要在意他呢？
就算我在意他对我的看法，
那为何要弄伤我自己呢？

懂得改过的人，
是值得有机会，若他争取。
就算别人不给，他人的看法难以改变，
最重要的是自己怎么看自己。

StreSS Day!

2008-05-15T17:00:00.003+10:00

1 Assignment due today, 2 presentation..

Aah~ Great~ stress time which is the day that i FINALLY use my head not against the wall, but to think.

Get my head in the work, brainstorming until the FINAL MINUTE then my brains started to work out... As people say that is the ttss spirit~ Duh~ NOT! but mostly student from there are always, and i mean OWEZ x infinity like this..

Struggling to the last minute of doing both assignment and the presentation in the same tutorial which is FANTASTIC (i'm being sarcastic here).

Assignment was done very good and there's 2 hours left before the tutorial. Nice~ and i was still at home~ Rush to uni which will take me for an hour on train & tramp..

Wrote my script on the my handy laptop in tramp and in train. Nice one..proves that i know how to use my time FINALLY which i never ever did it before.

It was nice for my "creative" idea for a presentation to start off with a PEPSI drink~ and the other moment of !@#$%^&* turns into a disaster.... u know y? i tell u why.... THANK YOU to the INTERNET EXPLORER..~

I can't f*cking log into the youtube for advertisement for my presentation. It COULD HAVE BEEN more enthusiastic if there's the advertisement support.

AAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! feel that i'm a f*cking lamer in front of everyone but luckily my parents born me with brains and fast thinking which ONLY works during EMERGENCY!

I have to make my own points and drag the whole presentation with just the point of the artefact gets the cognitive learning of consumer. I can even write it now for all you know, i've been writing this CONSUMER BEHAVIOUR stuff and researching it for days~

well, the presentation wasn't bad as my group mates was SO NICE of them helping me....... because i'm presenting it on behalf of them..... well, to be honest they did help out when i'm lost cuz i'm really really nervous when the stupid advertisement didn't work out.

Not much help but they tried... Thanks to the tutor mates that i have... although i did make EYE CONTACT with them which I CANT really see them... i'm dun wear contact lens and i didn't wear my specs.. they helped me by asking QUESTIONS...

Questions that will help me in my enthusiasms of how i reply them? and making sure they know wat i'm presenting about. Yea~ they understand.. cuz i use simple words

I'm chinese ok~ can't aspect too much of i can speak how fluently with all the grammar, conjunction or words... not words but those words "adjective, difficult words" u know wat i mean?

Moreover, a girl.... totally surprise me when she came out with

" It is a GROUP WORK isn't?"
i replied " yes...definitely"
"Why are you presenting by yourself? where are your group mates"," it's not fair isnt?"
"................", quick thinking of mine and i answered,"GOOD QUESTION", "very good question indeed", "nice one"... "hahahaha.. let me think", "lecturer did say we can present it in our own way...so my group mates TRUST me, so.... they chose me"

another replied" yea...tat's true....it is not necessary that everyone needs to present it"
-------PHHHHHHEEEEEEEEEWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW-----------
tat's a good one....
really.....

making me more nervous.... but... everyone laughs when i said "GOOD QUESTION"
u know.... i have the habits of whenever i talk...my hands will show some.... ACTIONS...
u can imagine...

well.... i did screw up for the help of INTERNET EXPLORER...

well... most ppl said i did well...although there are SURPRISE thing happens.... "the breakdown of advert, and weird Questions popping up", i know wher i am... i can do better...
Somehow, everything happens of its reason.

Lesson again to learn, there are always uncertainty environment around us... be prepared for the worst.. I know i always got the luck and the guts... ^^ i'm open minded for this kinda things.... I would be sad or angry... but it just a period of time.... unless i have someone accompany me >.<

If my mom is here.... I tell u........ she for sure NGO me until i DU LAN....

now.. to relief myself... i blog....in the library... i'm tired...and i'm gonna start doing my another script for my upcoming presentation at 630pm.

心情低落。

2008-05-07T22:21:00.004+10:00

“因为你，我变成好富有。
在你怀中，被爱占有，那种满足是什么也比不过。
没有你，我变得好贫穷。
在人世中，少了你在左右，我想我什么价值也没有”

这句话，我已找了好久。
当爱来过的时候，我真的体会过这种幸福。
可是，就是选择读书，
彼此的决心不够坚强，
动摇了，断了····

这一次，我所看见的，是模糊的，
我感觉的，也是模糊的，
抓又抓不紧，逃又逃不掉。

他的心情，他的愁，
他的笑容，他的梦，
我都能感受到，
可是，本人就是甘愿远远看着他，
不是因为得不到的东西特别美，
而是，大家的不肯定，让我放慢了脚步。
我知道自己走得太快，
即使是他，理智力比我强，
可是，人总会有一天迷失方向。

生命的污点！

2008-05-07T22:05:00.003+10:00

我的人生，真的充满感情的世界，
是否，是因为是双鱼座，就得那么情绪化呢？
你知道吗，我脑海中，总觉得自己好笨，好天真，好愚蠢。
我又想起那!#$%$^&*新加坡人的事，
我不生气，我只痛恨自己的眼光，痛恨自己的天真，痛恨的被骗。

我不否认这是成长的过程，
比别人快地多。
生命中的第三个污点。

又幻想她的存在

2008-05-05T13:28:00.003+10:00

看着他的照片，
想起我撒娇的时候，
为他流泪的时刻，
或许他已习惯我的眼泪，
不再在乎我的感受了，
是我想太多，
当想到，能够在他怀抱中取暖，取到一些的安慰，一些的支持，一些的温度，
我会想起，我不配，我太软弱，
想起，他的前女友，是他一直想起的，
我并不是他的唯一。
这让我把我的勇气、爱意收藏起来。
或许，他已不再想念她，
我又怎在意？
他能鼓起勇气来接收我的一切，
我又为何会太在意。
不是因为他的之前，
而是在意的是，他跟我一起的时刻，他会提起前女友，
他自信满满，
让我无法封好自己的伤口，
只好用酷得情绪来爱着他。

爱情是需要双方的勇气，
去肯定自己的方向，
找到自己的目标。
这一切，我的相信，我的渴望，
已经开始模糊了。

我是在期待着“那一个人” 的爱
我在等待。
我能够付出多少，并不要求回报。
但是，我怎也要在乎自己的未来
之前，对谁付出的多少，他们不理解，
我也不追究，
每一个人都是会胡思乱想，
变成了幻觉，弄得双方彼此感到烦。
烦着一个不存在的现象，
造成了感情的一道墙。
即使，彼此在左右，心却被道墙分割了两地。

“是你的，就是你的”
如果不努力争取，你能认为成就、机会就能够在你面前吗？
同样的，“不是你的，就不是”
无论，你付出多少，天天在一起，结果还是一场悲剧。
仔细想想，
一个手掌，是拍不出声音的。
所以，每段感情，是需要彼此的付出、体谅、关怀、勇气，
来维持一端恋情的。
只要，他的手，握紧我的手，我的手不放开他的，
遇到难关的时候，他放开了手。至少，我握紧着他，他还知道我的存在，
同样的事发生在我身上时，就看他会不会做同样的事。

李圣杰的手放开歌，
其实，是他没本事抓着她的心，
女人的心，容易受伤，容易心软，
他得放开，或许，他自己也没力气了。
或许，她已受够了。
这首歌，是很有情趣，
恋爱着的情侣，就别像我那样，喜欢把别人的经验，歌曲，意思，放入自己的感情上，
这对彼此都不公平。

我当然是不会轻易放弃，
虽然，之前彻底的被伤害，变成一种的恐惧感，
我不能让我的过去，毁掉我的前途。
我承认，偶尔会想起，痛恨自己的天真，痛恨自己的信任，
不再相信是一个痛苦的事。
所以，我再次拿起自己的武器来对付一切的困扰。
我的笑容、我的心、我的活动，
一切都会带给别人的情趣。

我相信，我还能把别人的黑白人生，
挑去一个充满色彩的人生。

我的感情恋上、人格上，
我会更努力的更改我自己的毛病。

Susanna's Birthday

2008-03-10T19:35:00.000+11:00

Su's birthday celebrate at SEVEN 7........

Eunice Chang & Max Foo

Hudson Foo , Candy & Su..

The LC wannabe GUYS

The TTSS group

TTSS group

Forgot his name but... he is Robin brother

Hotchics Wannabe

Kevin CHung, Me, Su

RRRRRRRrrrrrrrrrrrroooobbIIIINNNN ma bro

Smokers?

I recall that.....CLUBS can't SMOKE..... =.=

p/s: the ciggy not lit

Derek ma bro

After Friday night.... Saturday continues........

Dress Code: Waitress??????????????????????? (alamak !=.=)
Venue: Richmond (dinner), Cashbox (sing k)

Guess who is who..... ( obvious lah my dear )

Special day of Mine

2008-02-28T23:59:00.000+11:00

A special gift from my mom and Dad....
Glad that some of my friends and mates remembers my day..
I was very surprise to receive his sms -Ngau Ngau remembers the day,
Anyway, jz walk around in the city that i'm new of
While was passing by a CHANEL shop...i received dad's MSG saying...get something by using card for a present....love dad...

Are you thinking what I'm THINKING?

Nah~~~~~ I wouldn't buy something that expensive using dad's $$...
Even i can afford or earning my own $$... PLEASE.....
I believe that i'm a person that juz will treasure and admire THINGS for a while...if i buy on my own or...something doesn't values to me...

Fashion will owez change.. and I believe that most females love to change style in handbags and shoes and clothing EVERYTIME...

I rather support GUESS? because... it is more fashionable ^^... a branded cheap goods....
Spoil oso won't feel heartache.... wahahahahhaha....

Like some men say, " you juz have a body and ur clothes like TONS...." , "you juz have one face and u need TONS of makeup" or even " you juz have 2 foot and your SHOES .........." bla bla so on and so fort....

For Men,
We buy things to beautify our self to ATTRACT u....
If we don't, guys will owez complain...
and.....they will find other women.... ^^ ( this sometimes u know i know lah)

back to topic...
Another opportunity of mine.................................

haha....
the day of the day... these 2 friends of mine (same high sch ttss) accompanied me...

At Night.... friends came over to play LAMI

My hse mates bought a DELICIOUS CAKE

QUESTION: WHERE ARE THE GUYS?

they went home..........hahahahahhaha we had the cake all by ourselves ^^

** simple and nice gathering... brings more fun than a huge party... the value of friendship will owez wins the quantity of friends..... **

-- this is more meaningful --

Have u realise it is all TTSS PEOPLE????????????????? juz only one is not... - name: YYY -

New Year Eve in KL (2007)

2008-01-03T17:58:00.001+11:00

New Year Eve of 2007 was cool and happy.

SURVIVOR from a NIGHTMARE AFTER CHRISTMAS.

-A celebration of FreeDom, A Release and SURVIVE from a horrible incident from a SINGAPOREAN-

Although i still get nightmares after that 2 incident. With my friends around me, whom i feel that i'm lucky enough to have them around me and get along with them in a short period of time.
May i present AH FAH/NOM NOM/Ah HUA/Ah CHUA (he got lots of nickname), Ah Mian, Peter and Ah Hee...

~AH Fah and Me~

~Ah Mian & Me~

~A Group Photo~

(Ah Hee, Ah Fah & Me [front])

We were celebrating at the LAUNDRY, nearby Wan Utama...

Genting

2007-12-31T04:31:00.000+11:00

Well....the crew went Genting...

I was having fever that time, but... I don't feel much cold when i'm in Genting, but people were starring at me... Mayb I WAS GORGEOUS ***ehem*** Nolahh...juz kidding..

Some people might thought, "walao, what degree here o0o, wear to thin... scare no ppl see meh?"
Another kind of people will think "Act strong a? Show off?"

Still got still got, " Wakao.... 2 thumbs up"

WHY m i wearing like this?

cuz... I oso dunno.... OI LIANG MOI MIANG(in hakka), wan 2 stay pretty mah~ Mostly females are like that anyway~

OKok.... To be honest... i really dun feel cold lah~

U think go Australia study wasting effort de meh?

Go there training 2 tahan cold u know~~~~

We took group photo... Some people in KL go Genting never take photo... haiz...

same like some SABAH locals NEVER CLIMB the MOUNTAIN before...

A Night at Bamboo

2007-12-23T18:25:00.000+11:00

It was Friday..A Club name BambOO.. dunno where it is...
Quite Nice, Not Highclass But NO AH BENG(LALA ZAI), AH LIAN (LALAMOI).
Met few chics, they dance pretty well...which makes me enjoy dancing with them ^^
At least one of the sisters daring to do some moves ^^
I was a bit GONE tat night...so PAISEH~

Jennifer, Me & Mona

Mona & I

Ah Fah, Me, Mona, and the CHICS

The Chics are sisters and hugging tat one dance HOT

THe OutStanding Bitches in da Club